My 2010's Resolutions

Two days before New Year. The best thing about the end of the year is that u can restart all over again: new rules, new goals and new you. Every time the New Year’s coming out there is a trademark to make the resolutions also. No matter if it come true or not, the thing is u have ur own New Year’s resolutions just like others.

Build the New Year’s resolutions is an easy stuff. U only need to close ur eyes and let ur imagination tells u what ur wish for the next are. It’s easy because dreaming is a natural habit of anyone, isn’t it? But, the hard part is to keep committed with the resolutions. A first problem related to New Year’s resolutions is that there are so many of them. Then I’m looking on the internet searching some web related to make ur New Year’s resolutions come true. Thus before I’m mentioning my New Year’s resolutions let me share u some secret to make the New Year’s resolutions come true. I got it from here.

• Make a resolution chain. Pick two or three commitment u wish the most. Arrange them to what u wish the most on the first and keep focusing on that.
  
• Write them specifically, systematically, detail and measurable . u need to arrange specifically what u look, listen and feel if the resolutions make it. Then u will understand how precious it is to make a resolutions as the motivator to walk on ur future (this is my word btw  )
• Shout them to the world. The more people know them the more u can make them come true. It said that one of the thing why the New Year’s resolutions failed to success is because of the habitual of keeping the New Year’s resolutions as secret.

Well then, I’ll make my New Year’s resolutions like that from now on. So, here they are my New Year’s resolutions:

1. Have a new boyfie. Haha.. it’s a must, dear. I’ve taken too long time of being single. Time to change my status now. So then, to be not available anymore I should be an open-minded, a welcoming, and a smiling girl, I might say. It’s hard for me to love somebody. There’ll be always the bad side of everyone. But the worse is that I can’t accept their bad side. Allrite then, from the 2010 I’ll try my best to accept every man on the earth to get closer to me. To be honest, I need a boy by my side. Whew..
2. Have a Jessica Alba’s torso. I’m dying for it!! And it’s been my dream since I was in high school. And yet, it hasn’t worked out either. I will join a gym club then I’ll take a jog 3 times a week or at least once a week. Substitute the rice with oatmeal. Try a healthy life. I’ll try. Pray for me, dear!!! The goals are have a very flat torso, haggard cheek, tight thigh and leg. I wish my skin could be a lil brighter (god help me with this matter!!!!!!!)
3. Save much money. I am the lavish but also the miser. Time to save much money on 2010 and the next. My word is to keep at least 10% of my money every month. It felt so bad to not having money on ur hand in time u need it. And also, I’ll reduce my habit of eating fast food also the expensive food. I’ll stop cracking some snacks. Indeed, it’s gonna be a tough one. But, I’ll stay away my body from some calories of that junk food. My body deserved much healthier food, and healthier money.

I should tell u, this New Year’s resolutions are very, very hard tho. Because of I have to change my natural habit eventually. Then again, no matter how hard it is u supposed to thru it all. And btw, U’ll never realize how strong u are until u have no other choice but to be strong.

Thanx for reading my post. Indeed, ur comment is appreciate so leave a comment here. Later on, I wonder about ur 2010’s resolutions so let me know, pals!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL. Wish we could me a better person next.

And HAPPY HOLIDAY also…

dos and don'ts in my day-off

Happy Eid Mubarak people. As the matter of fact, u’re all got a full week day-off. Well... not all of u. some of u including me got a full week day-off. Even I got 10 day-off, darling. Alrite then, the question of the post is

what are u gonna do in ur day-off?

Day-off is such as a sacred day for me. So I’m just doing a sacred thing to do in my day-off. Because it’s literally an honor to have it.

Here is my 10 things to do in my day-off. Hope it inspired u guys. (truly, it’s not kinda post that u will inspiring of)

1. First thing first is never showering. Oh give me a break, people. It’s a holy holiday for the love of god. U should appreciate it with all the holy thing u could imagine. In case u don’t even know what the thing is, let me tell u now. not showering in my holiday for me is like my respect for the holiday. Really, how many day-off u got in a month? It’s only 4 days (at least). So u wanna waste thus day with take a bath? It’s utterly the scariest idea I’ve ever got. So, let urself a lil dirty on ur day-off, fellas.

2. Downloading til the signal drop. In my case, Telkom Flash signal is very moody as the owner mood. So, I’ll let myself drown in this cyber world to download whatever crossed in my mind til the signal drop. Bad luck, it’s not always goes as what I like. I have a very big fat family here. So, I always share a shift to play this internet media with my lil brother, big brother, sister and also my poppa. In weekday I only got a shift with my drat lil brother. But since the day-off everyone is coming around the home, I should share this one for all. Damn!!

3. Watching anything. Since the weekday I would work on my project or my school task, I didn’t have a beautiful time to watch anything show up in the TV. Besides, I love to watch. Whatever to watch such as watching DVDs, news, sinetrons, reality shows, talk shows or even family shows (believe me, there’s always supposed to be a family show like ur momma yelling at u about ur dirty lil bedroom which I wouldn’t give a damn on it. Haha..). for me, watching is like my prior necessity. So, let ur self do ur prior necessity in ur day-off.

4. Reading is a must. Hello guys, we’re not talking about read a text book of medicine here. Off the record, I never read that hell stuff in my busy day either. Since the internet has it all on ur fingers, what the textbook supposed to exist anymore? Somehow, text book seems like an allergen for me. Novels, comics or even newspaper is what I’m talking about darlin.

5. Sleeping all day long. Tell me the truth, how many time u spend for ur sleep? I myself admit that I never had enough of sleep. Day-off refers to stop working and start sleeping, baby.

6. Let ur bed as messy as it used to. I can’t get it why my mom was always complained about my messy bedroom. Come on mom, that’s mine. Let it be the way it used to. Messy bedroom doesn’t mean the end of the world. And either doesn’t mean I am that dirty, pals. I’m not dirty just give an honor to day-off by not doing something worthless.

7. Work ur muscle. Doesn’t mean I always did that when I’m off. But apparently it’s the best thing to do when u have nothing to do. Who wants to get a fatty in ur stomach ever after the day-off? No one. So, people.. start makes some sweats. I’m dreaming to have a morning jogging or a swimming trip in my morning day-off. But, because of some reason u don’t need to know it can’t be come true thus.

8. Walk around the town. Not really recommended people.. only if u rich enough at that time and have no idea where to waste ur money. U could walking around the mall or even the sidewalk so u know how it feels like being a “bule”.

9. Circling with ur family. The more u grow up the more lose ur time with ur family. So, worth the time.

10. Spoiled urself. Free the stress of this life in ur favourite saloon. Get some hair and body treatment that Ur body thus deserves that. They’d worked so hard to help u in this life. Cieh…

The bottom of line is free urself from the routine of the weekday. That’s how u can survive in this planet though. Here’s a lil my

don’t u dare to do when ur off

1. Get showering too early. Go straight to hell if u dared to touch the water early in the morning!

2. Do ur task. It’s a day-off u could got only in a week for god sake!

3. Wake up early in the morning. Well, I always wake up early even it’s off but after take “sholat subuh” I know it’s the only time I had to sleep til drop. So, sleep tight babe..

4. Cook by urself. Stop doing that simply silly thing. Go figure it some food out there. It means u help another people in ur planet to buy their food.

5. Clean ur messy room

6. And many more. I don’t wanna make much more list of don’t do because not all of u will think positive about me if u read this.

The point is do whatever u wanna do in ur day-off as long as it’s not the same thing u do in ur busy day. These are my some to-do and don’t do list. Wondering by myself, what about u, pals?? Leave a comment here. Ur comment is appreciates.

Confession of a desperately love disappointing me

In this night really have no idea what to do. Besides all the plan has scheduled before had already broke. So now, here I am sitting all alone writing anything crossed in my thought. Thinking about the 3 years of Saturday night I’ve spend as an available girl.

Somehow, this whole of the week I feel so into blue. Because of all the 3 years love disappointing I’ve through it all. 3 years for god sake?! U could even have 3 babies for that long time. Though here I am as alone as I am waiting all the time for ur coming. Still wondering who’s he?

I’m still looking forward to find the wrong in me which successfully making me alone all the way. Indeed it’s not that hard to forget this ex boyfriend. Since he’s supposed to have millions of girls in his life after he left me here alone (WTF!!). it’s supposed to be that easy to forget this drat man. From the deepest of my heart I don’t even have any hard feeling for him anymore. It’s been 3 years already, Nenny!!

Then I was thinking. Maybe the fault is mine. Because of his perfection in my thought, I’ve never looked any better man than him. I was too inspired to have a man like him even more. Thus, that’s why all the man had got closer to me is look too far from him. He always be my best (even he’s totally far from that word. As the matter of fact, he left me here all alone!! GOD DAMMIT!!).

It’s hard for me to welcome every man who getting closer to me.

Am I that perfectionist girl who always looks for the best one? Well, if u asked me that simple question 2 years ago, there’ll be no doubt for the yes answer. But for now on I am wondering, what the hell am I wish for this love life story? Looking for the best one then u got dumped by him? Or the best one though he’s cheating on you? Doesn’t mean that ex did that kinda stuff to me. But that’s my point. What’s on earth I’m looking for a perfect boy to be mine?

Doesn’t mean for this 3 years I can’t find a better man than him. Actually I’ve already adored another man in my school. But it always goes as a real story of my life. The man has already have a girl (oh, very typical!!).

In Facebook there’s an application about a quote that written by the member of this friends network. This application called Minekey. And it’s a quote that totally sooooo me. Well the quote is “Everybody wants to have a loving and caring person next to them. They dream of it, They looking for it, but when They find it, They take it for granted, They get annoyed by it and then ignorance begins”. The quote exactly describes a girl named nenny (that’s me, sweetheart!). That’s what I always feel of the man who closer to me. This ignorance come naturally such my habitual things to do.

So, what’s on earth I take my 3 years for granted. Find a perfect man for 3 years is truly a wasted. Alrite then, from now on… I’m trying to understand these men. Trying to stop the ignorance unless the acceptance. Nobody’s perfect, nen and so u are. So, reflect yourself before you’re judging the other men.

I supposed to change this mind-set! I’m not looking for a man who look alike this ex or even better than him. I’ll look for a loving and caring man next to me. I’ll try not to take him for granted anymore. Start to open myself, my mind and my soul… there’re millions of man waiting for me out there. Forget my past, I’m not gonna get something worth with that but pointless, desperate and disappointing moment as I used to.

I CAN DO IT. I SHOULD.

So, let’s hunt fellas!!

Sapardi Djoko Darmono - Aku Ingin

it's 9 in the morning.
thank god my flash works out. then, browsing all the time til starving is the choice to spend the weekday.

i read some blog. from desi anwar, kick andy then i stop in raditya dika's one. i read the older blog when i found 1 quote that makes me feel i don't know how describe. this poet comes from Sapardi Djoko Darmono just so bad-ass for me.

the title is Aku Ingin


"Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada"

well, then..
this is the power of words!!
indeed it's a simple words in a simple sentence but in a god damn heart-breakingly meaning. ugh..

well, in case u wondering his face, u can see his pic below.

Sapardi Djoko Damono

spend a not-quality time

10 in the morning.

wake up at 6.30 then turn on the PC. check my email, facebook, twitter, myspace. all account i have (i just have too much i might say). and suddenly, my sister who just getting married for 3 days out of her room and give me a box of Almond Chocolate of Delfi. my brother-in-law bought me that. yes!! this is what a morning day supposed to be!! so, chocolate is my breakfast today.



8.30 am the house almost empty. then i realize, what am i gonna do today? not in mean, i dont have something to do. i told u i have too much to do but i don't want to think about it. shit!!
my project (my research) hasn't start yet. the reason is because my mother still at her work. so, it will start this afternoon apparently.

so, again and again i'm spending the not-quality time with the not quality things to do. poor me!! u know, i just have already done with best-movie-i-watched list on flixster (it's not worthy i know. but, what u should do in ur holiday then?! i'm not asking u about my project!!)

i bought a pirate dvd of Love Actually.everybody just like it that bad. feels like an old school for me haven't seen it until now on. but, that's pirates u know. always has its own broken thing. the audio is really-really bad. sounds like some echo when the casts talking. in addition, the translation text just as bad as the audio. since the English translation is disappeared. I absolutely cant stand with this. sugar-honey-ice-tea (SHIT!!)

and now what?
dunno, I want to watch He's just not that into you. but, the dvd's with vivi rite now.
so here i am. as blank as used to. have no idea to do.
damn it.

btw..
i miss that spain guy. where is he? is that stupid Thailand really that good huh??

oh rite, highly recommended for u.
i'm listening for david sides ft ahmir with the climb rite now. worth to watch and listen, people. i admire david sides that bad. haha.. u should to check that one out.

one more thing, yesterday I was spending all the day long with kero-kero. had lunch in pizza hut, chit chat in fountain. tasted a very bad ice cream soda float. i should remind u to not offer this thing in Fountain. I can't stand with a half of glass of this shit.
and here is some pict of us yesterday.

yes, that's rite..
I am that beautiful. haha..