Meet Mr. right man

After all this time wondering where on earth are you, dear Mr. Spouse-to-be, I finally found the meaning of waiting this very long time and be patient through the stage of life to eventually met you.

You taught me that the one I wanted is not the one I needed, ironically. I’m falling in love to the man who I least expected and attracted to. The man who successfully turned me off from the first time he texted me. The man who should’ve been rejected (has been!) at the first time. That man who is ridiculously the answer of my prayer.

Cara Allah membolak – balikkan perasaan ini bener – bener insane. No matter how hard I’ve rejecting him, if he meant to be mine then he’d be.

Satu hal yang sangat aku syukuri adalah kamu yang tetep bertahan walaupun udah dicuekin. Sorry for being rude back then.

Kenapa kita baru dipertemukan sekarang dengan cara yang paling jadul dan nggak masuk akal? Kenapa aku harus ngelewati fase galau ngeliatin temen-temen udah pada merid, gendong anak sementara aku Cuma kebagian jahit baju bridesmaid over and over? Kenapa aku harus ngerasain beribu pertanyaan “kapan kawin? Nunggu apa lagi sih kan kerjaan udah bagus. Jangan banyak memilih lah nanti jadi perawan tua loh”?

Karena kita sama – sama berdoa untuk saling ketemu disaat kita udah siap physically and mentally. Kita (unanimously) saling memperbaiki diri untuk ketemu di saat yang tepat dengan cara yang sesuai dengan syariat.

If only we were meet a year ago, we won’t make it for sure. I used to be with players, men with pick-up lines, and all the romantic yet haram stuffs to do. You are indeed the opposite of my ideal type but you are the most capable, comfortable and compatible to me. You offer me sincerity, security and Jannah. So what’s there to worry about even we have nothing (literally) in common, isn’t it?

In the name of Allah, I choose you to the intention of making us halal and Jannah as our final destination. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

Another whining time

So the last time I updated a post was 2 years ago. Time flies so fast..

2 years ago while I was just a fresh graduated doctor who eagerly to begin my carrier. 

I was full of whines back then. Even now, whining is as simple as my middle name. 

Alhamdulillah 2 years passed by and many things had happened to me to bring me to where I sit right now. 

I'm in the middle of a meeting room in a public hospital in Medan waiting for the open ceremony for my hemodialysis training here. 

I've been awaken since 4.30 am to get here. At 5 and a half I was already sitting on a car seat just catch 7.30 am getting here right on time. 

Now here I am still sitting on the same room, waiting on the same person just to start this damn-so-called-open-ceremony. For 8 hours of waiting and I still had no idea where the hell this highness majesty is actually right now?!!!

I'm absolutely grateful for the opportunity to be the chosen one to do the training. 

Is it part of the training itselves? Waiting for the unlimited time. So the longest I can stand the moron I'll get. 

Why is it so hard to be just right on time? Even a plane company could get sue for its delayed schedule. 

Why on earth I have to wasting my 8 hours of my life just to wait to the uncertainty? ????????

As mainstream as it sound : Resolusi 2014

Last day in 2013 bring me to flash the whole memory back. It's equal either bitter or sweet memories I have this whole year. Instead of stuck in the bad things, I'd love to remind myself all the good stuff had happened in 2013. 

1. Alhamdulillah aku dikasih kesempatan hidup sampai sekarang :)

2. Selesai internship

3. Papa selesai pengobatan Hep C dan dinyatakan bersih dari hep C

4. Diterima  dan kerja di 3 RS swasta di Medan (not to mention all the tears and hard work had been fell back then)

5. Punya gaji sendiri dan gak minta bulanan lagi sama papa mama

6. Selesai ACLS dan ATLS

Well, I'm this bad at memorizing things. I'm sure it'd be more advantages than what I wrote above. Due to this limited ability to recollect things, let me tell you my resolution for 2014 then.

1. ME-NI-KAH. I've enough of being bridesmaid, puhlease..  I'm looking forward to get married at least at the end of the year. Don't let me cross my 25 being single :'(

2. Punya kerjaan settle dengan sallary over 7k

3. Holiday. I'm craving for distraction from my routine. Either in or out of country is good enough for me. I missed the feeling to be up in the air, sleeping in hotel, taking pict every corner of new place, and culinary tour. I need some short getaway next year to refresh my mind. 

4. Ganti mobil dengan uang sendiri

5. Jadi dokter haji

6. Berat badan 48-49 kg

7. Baca novel, nonton di bioskop, makan di luar minimal satu kali tiap bulannya

8. Lebih sering nulis. due to my limited recollecting stuff, it'd be nice if I wrote down what happened that time. Just to remind myself that I've been through a lot all that time.

9. Punya teman baru minimal 1 orang tiap bulannya. So at the end of the year I have at least 12 new friends. I just find out how lonely It is lately since one by one of my friend get out of town to make money for living :(

10. Mengurangi kefanatikan ku sama kpop dan kdrama. Recently it's been destructive till I took myself away from society to keep me watching, following and engaging to them.

11. More patient and less whining, 

12. Seeking for scholarship. Stop expecting money from parents for my tuition fee. Either my own saving or scholarship which will pay my school tuition fee. And I will start considering my next speciality that I'm into it. Soon!

13. Banyak sedekah, puasa dan umroh!

Wow, the more line I wrote the more list I've came into. 

13 resolutions for 2014 

A friend of mine ask me about my movie of the year or song of the year. Nothing crosses my mind but the effort to get a job and pass some tests. I've lost a lot of money, time to sleep, tears, sweats and the most of all is TIME just to be here. To be the way I am right now, right here. Nothing to regret for all I have got until now because I've done my best. My bottom line of 2013 is EFFORT. 

Life happens

I am not celebrating christmas. Tho christmas left me full of precious memories. Last year in the same date I was driving in a convoy on our way to Bukit tinggi. 

My first experience to drive out of town. The memories hardly leaft my sight till now. Konvoy dua mobil dengan tiga penumpang di tiap mobilnya ( bukan lebay, Kita sekeluarga gigantisme + obese. Jadi gak memungkinkan 6 manusia sit properly and comfortably in a car). we used HT (handy talkie) to communicated between one car to another. Di mobil pertama papa, mama dan abangku yg nyupir. Mobil kedua ada adek cewek, adek cowok, dan aku yg nyupir. A thrilling yet challenging experience i'd said. It took me about 9 hours of driving to get there. Jadi setiap hari we spent on the car enjoying the scenery of Bukit tinggi to padang. We stopped in every beautiful place for awhile just to enjoythe beautiful nature God has creatde and taking picture. Everyday we moved from one to another hotel. Such a lovely and precious time we spent our quality family time together.

It was last year..

This year is another story has created..

I'm still driving myself indeed bukan keluar kota tapi ke Rumah sakit. Alhamdulillah tahun ini aku jaga IGD 36 jam gantiin temenku yg lagi natalan. Such a blessed opportunity I always get every day of my life.

So here I am now. Instead of driving my feet off to out of town, I'm sitting in emergency room watching NET channel playing christmas song while waiting for patient.

Life happens :) 

And I appreciate every single minute of it. Alhamdulillah :)

Ruled by hormones

Jaga di IGD RS banyak kejadian lucu yang disebabkan oleh hormonku 😂😂

Jadwal jagaku di sebuah RS setiap rabu - sabtu. Ya sabtu, setiap malem minggu aku jaga IGD instead of spending time with the loved one. Since the loved one hasn't met me yet then nothing's wrong spending time with the patients, yes?

Somehow setiap malem minggu aku selalu dapet pasien yang semakin memperjelas status "single and dying for a boyfie"-ku. 

1. Pasien laki2, middle 20, wangi, bersertifikasi ganteng, dateng ke IGD dengan keluhan batuk pilek dengan suara bindeng dan hidung merah. Well, pasien ini cukup buat aku nyesel kenapa gak bedakan dulu sebelum keluar kamar jaga (if u know what I mean). Sampai akhirnya muncul sang kekasih standing right beside him. There went my beautiful sight of satnite off. Like i had not enough already, waktu lagi nulis resep sepasang kekasih ini sitting in front of me did PDA a.k.a Public Display of Affection. Si cewek ngelus pipi cowok, ngomong lembut dan berbagai macam hal lainnya yang buat aku langsung cepet2 nulis resep biar mereka bisa segera cabut dari IGD and go get a room A.S.A.P!!!!

2. Pasien anak, laki2, 2 tahun, lucu ganteng dateng dibawa laki2 gak kalah lucu  (late 20) who end me up concluding him as my patient's brother. To describe the handsomeness2. , his brother was enough to distract my attention to checking up the patient 😌

My fluttering phase wasn't last much long until a beautiful woman seumuran aku dateng masuk ke IGD dan memperkenalkan diri sebagai mamanya pasien. And the one i thought as his brother was his father as well. Crap!! 

Sekalian aja tampar aku skrg. What a lucky woman! Seumuran aku, udah punya anak lucu ganteng, imut dengan laki ganteng terarah! Then I'm off of my flirt 😩

3. Pasien laki2, late 20, putih, berjambang, tinggi, terklassifikasi ganteng, dateng dengan keluhan luka robek di pelipis kiri saat main futsal. Well, denger futsal showing me an uncertain urgency to checking up his stomach to saw how much futsal worked on his abs 😝😝. Tapi berhubung keluhannya luka robek di pelipis gak nyambung lah klo aku buka2 baju pura2 periksa perut si abang kan.

Trus aku bilang ke pasien "lukanya udah berenti tapi kita jahit ya biar rapi pas sembuh bekas lukanya gak besar". Dan dia pun menjawab "gak usah dijahit bisa dok?" "Bisa aja sih, tapi nanti bekas lukanya jadi besar, gak rapi" trus dia bilang "gpp lah dok. Udah punya istri ini, gak perlu ganteng2 lah" 

Baiklah, langsung cepet2 aku suruh perawat bersihin lukanya, tutup dan langsung kasih resep. 😤😤😤

Hmm, kadang aku suka sedikit menyalahgunakan pekerjaanku. Well, cuma dokter yang bisa pegang2 badan suami orang tepat di depan istrinya tanpa dipelototin sang estri. Nah, as a doctor aku udah ratusan x grepe2 badan pasien sampe ke bagian yang (maaf) sensitif-nya tanpa merasa bersalah atau ngerasain apapun. Karena pure professionalism. Tapi entah kenapa pasien2 pejantan ganteng yang sering masuk IGD akhir2 ini sering buat aku canggung atau malu sendiri waktu  melakukan pemeriksaan fisik ke mereka. 

Yang paling sering kejadian nih waktu aku mau periksa abdomen (perut) kan pasiennya buka baju nya tuh. Tiba2 aja aku liat perutnya berbulu, masya Allah ya... Seketika itu juga I forgot what to do but staring at the abs 🙈

Dan entah kenapa setiap meriksa pasien2 ganteng ini aku jadi lebih teliti aja gitu. Waktu yang diperlukan untuk periksa pasien ganteng lebih lama ketimbang pasien biasa lainnya. Well I'm only human who've been ruled by hormones after all.